Not gonna lie, I have a very bad phone addiction. I'm very sensitive to ragebait. I'm overstimulated 24/7. Internet isn't funny and comforting anymore. It's just filled with consumerism and everyone's opinions which I didn't ask for. I'm watching stuff I don't choose. It just feels like something dystopian. i feel bad for stuff I didn't even notice or care before.
It's been 2 days since I put my smartphone in a box and took a vintage phone instead. It's my second attempt.
First day was atrocious because everything I was avoiding was rushing in my head. I was bored and couldn't do anything. Second day was less painful. I went to the park and stared at the sky for like an hour. It was kinda boring but kinda relaxing. I still don't have any desire of doing anything. I feel somewhat relieved for some reason but at the same time I had an existential crisis.
I get paid tomorrow. I'm gonna purchase an ipod for music and because I always wanted one in the 00's.