Tired and apathetic

2026-06-13

It's been a long time I haven't posted here. I'm so tired all the time. I have send so many resumes and still no job to me. This economy is so depressing, I just want some money to move on. All of my joints hurt. I'm so not fitted for living in a capitalist society. Everything seems so unfair because no matter what I do my head will feel like exploding and all my body will hurt and I will have to give up whatever I'm doing at the moment. How am I supposed to survive in this world like this ? No matter what skill I learn I can't use it long term because my body will eventually make everything stop. What is the point of being "gifted" with the ability to learn anything if fatigue is going to kick my ass anyways...

My boyfriend is about to lose his job too, how are we gonna do ? I see no hope for the future if it's still going to be like this.

Every noise is too loud. Every texture is icking me. Every taste and smell makes me nauseous.

I just want to be free.