I slept 12 hours

2026-07-03

I slept 12 hours and I am still tired. Still no job, still no money.

I'm listening to some old tunes to feel like I was in my room in 2005 without this kind of problems. I wish I knew it would be this hard. I would do eveything differently.

Autistic burnout is kicking my ass so hard at least once a month.

I remember being silly in 2007 on msn messenger and I miss this so much.

I had a great childhood, but I didn't see it at all at the time. But it makes me what I am today : Stable but a little depressed. It saved me so I didn't became a total mess.

It was at least manageable without all the adult stuff to keep up. No matter what I do I will never have the stamina to do everything like a normal person. I wish I wasn't autistic sometimes but if I had a magic wand to blow the autism away idk if I would be happier.

But at least I recovered my ability to daydream. It is so relaxing. It's the best with music.