I feel okay

2026-02-06

I'm going back to the art place tonight.

I have to do groceries this late morning so I can eat something... I'm not a big fan of going to the store. I wonder what I could eat... I feel like eating something else than bread and cheese.

I'm not a big fan of unemployment either. But evey job has killed me inside so far. But I don't want to be a financial burden to my boyfriend. And I like making my own money. But the job world is unforgivable in this day and age. And it's not autism friendly at all, haha.

I do not feel the urge to go partying and get intoxicated anymore. In fact, if I listened to my brain, I would stay home everyday, playing games, doing crafts and eating pastries and candy all day. I do not feel the need to socialise more than i do righgt now (wich is not that much). I feel like I don't really miss anyone. I'm just like "well would be cool if we see each other" but that's it. I don't feel any pain being away, or being alone. And I'm not gonna lie I really love it, it feels like I'm finally allowed to be myself. I do not fear others anymore. I don't know why the fear diseappeard and when exactly, but it doesn't really matter. I'm finally free for real. My looks don't matter anymore. I'm taking care of myself of course, but being pretty and pleasing others doesn't matter anymore. Maybre it's the 30's. People saying the 20's are the best years are lying.

Anyways, this is my outfit for today. I crocheted the sweater, it goes so well with this jumper.

I wish I could take a hot shower, but the boiler is broken RN and we have to wait for monday to get it fixed.

I will update this post with my paintings/drawings I will made tonight at the art place.